Day Two in Kitzbuehel

20th December 2009.

The first day of snowboarding was really tough.

We went down to the ski rental shop early in the morning to rent a snowboard for me.

And dani was already teaching me to snowboard while on our way back to the apartment to retrieve our belongings.

It was fun and we kidded around on the snow covered grounds.

But that was before my butt-numbing experience started.

We took the cable car up to the first peak and started off from there.

Dani told me i’d learn faster from falling.

As if (haha).

But i believed him anyway cause boyfriends are not supposed to lie right.

I already knew how to mount the snowboard on and had a rough idea of how to balance.

So dani decided we should learn how to break next.

The ‘back breaking’ was not so bad

I got the hang of it after awhile.

I fell a couple of hundred times that day.

On my knees and my butt,

And sometimes i cannot even regain my composure after falling.

Having dani hold on to me made me feel safe.

I could do almost everything with him around.

But once he let go, I was free like a bowling ball.

Free falling and tumbling and taking dani with me along the way.

It got so hard after awhile.

I was tired and frustrated and upset with myself, with my legs and the snowboard.

I felt like i couldn’t feel my legs anymore.

I felt so clumsy.

I felt so stupid.

I felt like i couldn’t even get something simple done.

I could feel the exasperation in dani’s voice too.

At times, he would look helplessly at me while i sat sulking in the snow.

He said to me that maybe we should stop.

Maybe we should switch to skiing cause it would be much easier.

But i stubbornly refused time and again.

I just needed to do it

And i so badly wanted to learn snowboarding.

I hung on till the end of the day

Then i broke down.

I was hurting so much,

From the top of my head to the tips of my toes.

My butt and knees were badly bruised.

I know i was being such a crybaby but i couldn’t help it.

But having dani made everything alright.

He sat beside me and just held me close.

He dried my tears and hushed me.

He told me we should go home because it was such a long and tough day.

And he said we would go down the rest of the way together.

I felt a million times better after that.

We made it down.

Drove home.

Had a hot and comforting shower.

And he nursed my bruises for me.

I never felt so loved and cherished.

Then i thought: “ It was all worth it”