Jealous Old Cow.

I decided this morning that I should just pretty much blog about random stuff and thoughts.

Cause it motivates me to write more often.

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So everything’s been set.

I just got to wait for 2 more weeks.

Now that CNY is round the corner,

Everyone’s in the mood for playing.

And I already have major plans for fun in mind.

Have to draw up a ‘To do’ list in case anything slips my mind.

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Now that CNY coincides with Valentine’s day,

It seems that the latter is more or less neglected.

I don’t see people getting all excited about V day

I don’t see shops actively displaying V day gifts and products

I don’t see many restaurants and hotels coming up with any V day promotions.

Not that i mind though,

Cause everyone will have to celebrate V day together this year (hahah).

How nice.

No lonely souls,

No odd ones out,

Everyone just have got to love each other this Vday.

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This CNY and V day will be different in every way for me anyway.

Alot happier and alot more exciting.

Pretty lucky this year cause bf is spending Vday and CNY with me.

But how many more lucky years can I have.

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Just went to view the rooms at Raffles Town Club.

Booked the Studio Room for 6 nights and the Lavender Spa Suite for the remaining 4 nights.

The spa suite is definitely something to die for!

Steam room + Jacuzzi right in the room.

Can have my own personalised spa (haha).

But then I was thinking of a Jacuzzi party.

HAHAH

Studio room

Lavender Spa Suite

The pictures don’t do the rooms justice

What’d you say

Ok.

Here goes.

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Have a busy day ahead of me

But I thought I’d like to take a little time to blog this morning

Because I have this whole chunk of stuff on my mind.

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Was listening in to Class 95 this morning

And some stuff dawned on me.

It wasn’t long that Glenn Ong and Jamie Yeo split up

And it also didn’t take long before he got together with Jean Danker.

So I wondered,

Why is it that there are people out there who can go into another relationship so quickly after one has failed.

And how come there are people who can find a new partner so easily.

Even when they seemed so in love even until the end.

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In this context, i define ‘quickly’ as 3 months or less.

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It was a struggle for me to get out of my previous relationship

And it took me at least 10 months to get into another one.

It was hard.

Really hard.

I couldn’t quite convince myself to start dating other people within that 10 months.

It was only when i resolved to get out of that rut that i opened up.

And coincidentally, Dani came along.

So things just took off from there.

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Posing the above question to different people yielded differing answers.

My colleague said:

“ Some people just can’t do without love and they can’t stand loneliness. So when someone comes along, they simply grab and go. There is no consideration about the future and very often, the relationship doesn’t last.”

My cousin said (and i quote her directly):

“ Love hits you when you least expects it”

My friend said:

“ Cos maybe the reason for the break up was caused by the new person”

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I thought all their opinions made sense.

It just depends on which scenario one falls into.

Some already have someone else in mind, hence they give up one for the other.

Some just have an abundance of potential partners around them, so it isn’t hard to pick from the pot.

Some simply cannot stomach the thought of being alone.

Perhaps I can never fully understand because I don’t belong to this group of people.

I guess as long as one is happy,

Nothing else really matters.

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For me,

Time was probably the essence.

While my stubborness was probably the obstacle.

It wasn’t until one day that i decided i should pull myself out of this mess that i managed to move on

And i know i will never live to regret this decision

Because it was from that day that I convinced myself to open up to others.

From then on, i never looked back again.

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And just last night,

Dani told me he met his ex gf with her new bf at a friend’s party.

They were kissing in front of him.

So I was curious to know how he felt.

He told me he didn’t feel bad or anything.

He just thought that it was interesting to see her in a different view.

Maybe I would find it as amusing to see my ex in such a way (haha).

Day Two in Kitzbuehel

20th December 2009.

The first day of snowboarding was really tough.

We went down to the ski rental shop early in the morning to rent a snowboard for me.

And dani was already teaching me to snowboard while on our way back to the apartment to retrieve our belongings.

It was fun and we kidded around on the snow covered grounds.

But that was before my butt-numbing experience started.

We took the cable car up to the first peak and started off from there.

Dani told me i’d learn faster from falling.

As if (haha).

But i believed him anyway cause boyfriends are not supposed to lie right.

I already knew how to mount the snowboard on and had a rough idea of how to balance.

So dani decided we should learn how to break next.

The ‘back breaking’ was not so bad

I got the hang of it after awhile.

I fell a couple of hundred times that day.

On my knees and my butt,

And sometimes i cannot even regain my composure after falling.

Having dani hold on to me made me feel safe.

I could do almost everything with him around.

But once he let go, I was free like a bowling ball.

Free falling and tumbling and taking dani with me along the way.

It got so hard after awhile.

I was tired and frustrated and upset with myself, with my legs and the snowboard.

I felt like i couldn’t feel my legs anymore.

I felt so clumsy.

I felt so stupid.

I felt like i couldn’t even get something simple done.

I could feel the exasperation in dani’s voice too.

At times, he would look helplessly at me while i sat sulking in the snow.

He said to me that maybe we should stop.

Maybe we should switch to skiing cause it would be much easier.

But i stubbornly refused time and again.

I just needed to do it

And i so badly wanted to learn snowboarding.

I hung on till the end of the day

Then i broke down.

I was hurting so much,

From the top of my head to the tips of my toes.

My butt and knees were badly bruised.

I know i was being such a crybaby but i couldn’t help it.

But having dani made everything alright.

He sat beside me and just held me close.

He dried my tears and hushed me.

He told me we should go home because it was such a long and tough day.

And he said we would go down the rest of the way together.

I felt a million times better after that.

We made it down.

Drove home.

Had a hot and comforting shower.

And he nursed my bruises for me.

I never felt so loved and cherished.

Then i thought: “ It was all worth it”

Day One in KitzBuehel

19th December 2009.

Packing and getting ready for the trip that morning while dani snaps away on his new Canon 500D.

I became his object of fascination for practising his photography.

He’s like the paparazzi.

So i cannot help singing Lady Gaga’s paparazzi to him whenever it’s on the radio.

Cause he snaps me doing every single thing.

He captures all my ugliest faces.

He catches me at my most umglam moments.

But i guess this is the real me. (haha)

We drove for almost 3 hours to get to Tirol/Kitzbuehel.

It is said that many famous and rich people come here from all over the world for skiing.

But i never did meet anyone rich or famous or anywhere close to that during my week long holiday.

We stayed at the Hartmann Apartment.

I like the setting of the bed in particular.

A private chamber specially for sleep.

But i wasn’t too satisfied with the pillows.

Cause they were too soft and made my head disappear all the time.

Did alot of unpacking and rearranging after grocery shopping at Spar (supermarket).

And we put Steward (our Christmas tree) out onto the balcony.

Dani whipped up a simple dinner of Spaghetti Bolognese for the both of us that night.

I couldn’t complain since i did nothing

But there wasn’t anything to complain either (haha).

Cause sometimes i think my boyfriend is a better cook than i am

And definitely a better cutter than me!

We went to bed early that night.

Had to get up early for our first day of snowboarding.

Christmas Dinner.

Time for updates since I am back.

Have been ignoring my mails, facebook, msn and skype over the weekend.

The 3 weeks away from home felt so good and refreshing.

Just spending quality time with dani while doing nothing was really great.

I realised that i tend to lose track of time when we are together.

I couldn’t differentiate the days, the dates and more importantly, the time.'

Frankly, 3 weeks went by too quickly.

Time simply flew by.

Anyway, back to updates.

18th December 2009.

Spent my first Christmas away from home.

Had a simple Christmas dinner with dani’s family the day before we left for our trip.

Dinner was only bread with cold meat and side dishes, served with champagne.

Totally different from what we have at home during christmas.

Nevertheless, it was a really quiet and private yet intimate dinner.

I received a pair of snowboarding socks and a set of adidas socks from dani’s parents.

While i gave them a chinese tea pot set for christmas.

Dani got an adidas scarf which was put into good use during our trip.

We went last-minute shopping for his parents’ present on that day itself.

Got his mom a Calvin Klein perfume which he picked out himself and his dad a set of Parker pens.

I wanted to get Jan a lego play set cause he had a gift for me but i didn’t managed to find anything suitable in the end.

But Jan got a Monopoly set from Dani & Fabian anyway.

Everyone loved their gifts received and it was such a good feeling to know that your thoughts and well wishes are appreciated.

I didn’t bring out my gift for dani that night because we decided that we should do our gift exchange on Christmas eve itself.

Our plan was to take a walk at the Christmas markets after dinner

Cause i really want to see what a Christmas market is about.

So we drove into Linz.

But to our dismay, everything was closed.

The night was freezing at –15 deg.

My face was frozen still and i couldn’t feel my features.

I remembered asking dani to check if my ears were still on stuck on my head,

Something which almost got him rolling in the snow laughing.

Cold and miserable,

We only wanted a shelter and a cup of hot punsch.

But there no Christmas markets and no bars for us to pop in for a hot drink either.

Something which we attributed to our bad luck.

But somehow, i think i’m the bad luck girl who brings us bad luck.

We went home cold, frozen and empty handed.

Day 1 in Austria was good anyway.

I was tucked into bed, with a kiss and plenty of warmth.

And i drifted off to sleep in no time.