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Sadness creeps in
Tuesday, October 7, 2008, 9:08 AM
He goes that way, I stay put. Still mulling..

It has been more than a month. I wouldn't say it's a long time, yet it doesn't feel like it was a short period either. Perhaps it's because the days felt long and draggy...

It hadn't been easy then and it won't be easy now. Being alone ain't fun. Sure, you get all the freedom in the world but you'll still feel empty at the end of the day. "Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes". How apt.

I didn't give up back then, so it really hurt when he chose to give up this time round. I remember asking him why and his answer left me desolated. I went home that night, determined to erase him from my life. I never thought it would be that hard to forget him. Maybe i lack the courage for i'm afraid that the memories will vanish along with him. Remembering leaves me with a heavy heart but not being able to remisnisce leaves me with nothing. I will myself to be stronger, to stop hurting and move on like he has.

At times of vulnerability, i remind myself that i deserve this and ironically, i feel a lil' better.

Only cw sees beyond my face.