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A Thousand Lilac Petals
And chapters of my life Quotes: Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.
Deepavali Happenings
Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 4:50 PM
Meng Zai tags along...





A late post from Deepavali!
Didn't really have the mood and time to blog yesterday so i'm doing it today.

Finally had our family picnic on Monday. Yay.
Weather forecast predicted that it was going to rain.. It did! But we packed up just in time.
It was a long overdue picnic from eons ago. I'm so so happy that it finally happened!
Hahah.

Venue was ECP.
The food was great.. prepared by Mommy and Aunty Irene.
We ate, chatted, cycled, laughed, joked, lazed around, did every single fun thing.
Meng Zai wanted to tag along so we brought him.
I think he took the most pictures haha.

We spent most of our time people-watching. Rented bicycles and took off for a short ride.
Mommy wanted to learn how to ride a bike and so we taught her.. but we gave up in the end! She just couldn't balance.. we ended up laughing most of the time.
Uncle Joe found a set of toyota car keys. We couldn't return it cause there weren't any lost and found counters nor were there any park rangers around.
We came up with silly ideas of setting up our own lost and found counter; erecting a sign to announce the find; looking out for people who walked with their eyes glued to the ground; going around the car parks trying to open every toyota car etc etc. There just wasn't one practical idea so we gave up.

The thunder began to roll and the clouds gathered at approximately 2 plus. It was then we decided to pack up and go for coffee at Old Town White Coffee. With many hands and even more eyes, we gathered our belongings in a matter of minutes and went in search of our coffee. Old Town White Coffee's milk tea is niceeee. Mmmmmm....

It was already 5 when we got home. Tired but happy.
I loved Monday....

Pictures uploaded at http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=59507&id=587940517&ref=mf


Tuesday
Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 4:43 PM
Feeling Lousy

I just want to go home.




I believe
Saturday, October 25, 2008, 9:14 AM
Cause Mommy Knows Best


I wanna believe what my mom told me.
I think i do believe.
I will try to live by it for i know i can always run to her.

Haven't been eating much lately.
Don't really have the appetite and my stomach hasn't been in the best condition.
I feel nauseous all the time.
I'm afraid i'll lose whatever weight that i have so painstakingly put on over the past few months.
Piff..

Went to watch HSM3 with CW yesterday.
I think he almost fainted.
I booked the wrong tickets and we ended up sitting 3 rows from the screen at some puny dark corner.
Straining, stretching, craning..
Corny show; lousy seats.
He says he never wants to watch a movie with me again.
Haha.
Got a nice halloween pumpkin container for my popcorn!
Love it.
Gonna use it for my christmas party.
I'm transforming it into santa!
Been showing it off the whole night.
Heh.

Met the gang for supper after that.
I missed each and everyone of them.
I hope the friendship lasts forever.
6 years and more to come.
We'll grow up together.
We'll grow old together.

It was mahjong after supper.
One last enjoyment before we all break for exams.
I'm looking forward to after your exams.
Mambo, KTV, Supper, Mahjong.
Slept for 2 miserable hours.
Didn't want to wake up for work.
Didn't have a choice either!

I'm sitting in my office right now.
Blogging.
Haha.
Slacker.
Got to get some work done this morning.
Got to go!

I hope i have some surprise for you all soon hehe.

How
Thursday, October 23, 2008, 4:10 PM
Can i do it

I don't have the heart to blog. Not today. Not now.
Haven't had the heart to do much today.
I think i will get better.
I'll find something new to do. Something fun. Something exciting.
I know i'll get better.
It's a matter of time.

Tuesday
Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 4:41 PM
Quotation Frenzy


Haven't really had the time to take a break until now and it's 4.45pm.
The entire day breezed by with endless quotations.
I'm currently stealing minutes in bwtween another quotation to blog.
Anyhow, it has been a relatively pleasant day.
Just that i still can't quite decide to do it or not to.
On a happier note, I'm catching a movie later!
45 mins for me to finish up.
Gotta hurry.

Saturday's Post Mortem
Monday, October 20, 2008, 4:06 PM
From Morning to Night to Morning

Saturday was spent watching Climbaprix and hanging out with my batch of climbers. I stepped out of the house at 730am and reached home at 500am, i was out for almost 24 hours!

Watching from the sidelines makes me miss competing so much. No, i don't like all the butterflies and intense competition; yet i love competing side by side with my team mates. So nostalgic. Baaaaah. I miss jumping and fooling around in isolation with the girls; i miss feeling nervous and jittery just like my team mates; i miss grinning at them secretly to say good luck; i miss sitting next to them on the chair while waiting for my turn; i miss dropping them hints of encouragements during our climbs; i really miss each and everyone of them: San. Nit. Meifen. Cher. Claud. Shumei. You all are the love of my NUS climbing life! Haha. Corny.

After Climbaprix, i rushed off with san, cher, claud and marian to meet the rest of the batchygang for dinner at Amoy Street. Failing to find the place that we first decided on, we settled for Zi Char at some random outlet. The food wasn't that bad at all. Each of us forked out 13 bucks for a dinner littered with food such as Prawn paste chicken, Sliced fish soup (Uurgh, it was really fishy! I offered my portion to Caleb), Sambal Kangkong, Fried Kailan, Sweet & Sour Pork, Mixed Toufu and.... ya i forgot the rest. (Yay. Bad memory. But how come i can remember all the unhappy stuff. Piff)

Some left after dinner so the remaining ones decided to find some cool place to chill.... and so, we landed our ourselves on top of MT FABER. The place used to be called Altivo but not anymore. Can't remember the exact name.. so let's not name this place. Ahh... along with wine and cocktails came all the hot gossips and corny stuff. So we have Kums telling his story of 34545, 654, 567, 7, 7, 7, 7 and 7777777777; Liying's funny antic of pouring martini all over herself because she mis-estimted the size of her mouth and the list goes on..

It was almost 4 when we left Mt Faber. Liying and NF went home while the rest moved on to the next destination for supperrrr. Caleb recommeneded this coffee shop with good thai food along Bencoolen street. We call this the COC = Check Out Coffeeshop. Interesting coffeeshop really. You could check anyone out openly and you get checked out all the time too. Lots of se pek pek loitering around to catch a glimpse of spilling boobies. That aside, the food was pretty good.

On our way back, Cw and i chatted about how our team has remained close throughout the years. I am so glad. We have all moved on... yet in unison. It's such an amazing thing to have everyone sitting together, chatting and laughing like it was before. The dynamics doesn't seemed to have changed. I hope it remains.

Hmmmm, i think i scared sandra, cherlyn and claud.
sorry.

Ps: Photos are on facebook http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=58004&id=587940517&ref=mf



Friday Night
Saturday, October 18, 2008, 10:14 AM
The Night That I Felt Like Baking

Just before i knocked off on friday, i had the sudden urge to bake something.
Went online to search for a quick and easy recipe and decided on this!

CHOCOLATE DREAM BITES



Looks maddeningly good right?

Ok, now look at how mine turned out.....


They look annoyingly different from the originals.


I've coerced my family into swallowing a few down. All are well so far. I suppose they look bad but taste agreeable.

The recipe states that it takes 30 minutes of preparation time and 10 minutes to bake. I took 2 hours and wasted 1 big bar of Cadbury chocolate, 2/3 cup of sugar, 1/3 cup flour, 1/4 cup cocoa powder, 1 teaspoon of baking powder and 1/4 teaspoon of salt in the process. Then i finally realised that i couldn't follow instructions. Moronic! Yikes. Yet, I am contented for i have kept myself occupied on a friday night. Yay. At least, i have done something mildly productive and contributed to filling people's tummies and not the toilet bowls I hope.












Sweet.
Friday, October 17, 2008, 3:42 PM
This Sweet Little Girl

Watched this advert yesterday...










It's actually a cancer advert in Spain.
Brings out the sweetest side of people.


Anyhow, anyone interested in adopting this two-week old kitten?
It's such a darling.





















Pictures credit to blessingsinabag



Please go to http://www.blessingsinabag.com/ for more information.

This student-runned-charity-initiative is acually started by my friend, Emily.
So do pop by the website to take a look!
It's really a meaningful project.

When i breathe
Thursday, October 16, 2008, 4:52 PM
OXYMORONIC

I'm alright.
It only hurts when i breathe



Loved
Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 4:09 PM
If You're Not The One





If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understandIf I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Sunday's dream
, 1:43 PM
ER.... SUGAR DAD?




Had a freakish dream 3 nights back. Dreamt that i was dating a 40 plus year old man who does not even look like peirce brosnan/george clooney but is possessive and wouldn't let me out of his sight! SPOOKY! I'm glad i woke up! Oh, did i remember to add that he's supposed to be working in my office?! Crapppppp. I cannot imagine dating a old man! I'm not into sugar-daddying. I think old men freak me out.. EEEEEkkk. Bad dreams stay away!

Anyhow, my dream won't come true cause i've said it out. pheeew.

A Frog
Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 1:45 PM
A FROG

I feel like a frog.
I look like a frog.
My mind's in a mess. I can't think.
My eyes are swollen. I can't focus.
I'm hopping up and down on the spot. Still stuck.
I'm desperately trying to keep my eyes open. It's hard.
Won't someone just cook me in porridge

Falling back into place
Monday, October 13, 2008, 12:28 PM
From riches to rags

The alarm rang, the sun rose while the moon set; sat morning has arrived.
The calender showed 11 Oct, yesterday has gone; a day of fun awaits.
The sun shone overhead, my watch showed 1230; work has turned into play.
The buliding comes into view, the car screeched to a stop; destination arrived at.
The cluttered walkway, the threatening crowd; a sea of unfamilarity.
That instant, the eye spotted that strikingly familiar face; the heart stopped.
The laughters rang, friends around; yet troubles still lurk.
The lights dimmed, the ceremony starts; 2 hours of lethargy.
The back seat, that back view; all in discretion.
The doors opened, the food beckons; hungry stomachs call out.
The stomachs filled, plates from full to empty; slurps elvoved into chatter.
The camera clicks, from the faces to the poses; spilling over with smiles and vanity.
The laughter so evident; the sadness nobody sees.
The many faces, so well hidden; from frowns to smiles in an instant.
That one request, the heart obliged; the mind lost in turmoil.
The clock strikes 12, the carriage turned into pumpkin; my dreams into reality.

Thursday Night's Scare
Friday, October 10, 2008, 10:13 AM
BANDITS ON THE LOOSE

On the tranquil night of 9th October 2008, small whimpers of help could be heard radiating through the climbing gym. I was tipped off by Jups that my monkey had been kidnapped by some unknown bandits. I looked up and to my horror, i found my little monkey hanging precariously from a runner attached to the high wall! I was terrified. He was squeezed into a roll of half-used finger tape, eyes bounded and mouth silenced with more finger tape. My heart broke when i saw my little moneky. How could the bandits have the heart to torture my little moneky... I pleaded with some kind souls to save my little monkey and it seemed that Jiasheng had a kind heart. Little did i know that he intended to bring my little monkey higher and to leave him there. But alas, his conscience must have pricked him for he brought my little moneky safely back to me. Anyhow, I suspect that he's one of the evil bandits!

The poor little victim:




Suspected monkey kidnappers are as follows:


















You are advised to turn yourselves in. Those who are willing to cooperate will be let off with a light beating.

That incident aside, all was well and the night went on without further happenings. We went about setting routes for the mock comp on sat.. trying routes, modifying routes, then testing the routes again and until we get the thumbs up from Jups, our route is then approved. Our route setting endeavor ended roughly at 1030pm. It has been a long while since i've stayed in school till so late, makes me feel like i'm back in school again! Nevertheless, a few good girls and the nasty kidnap suspects made their way down to Sheares Hall for supper. Supper was a sitting-across-each-other-at-a-super-long-table-that-looked-like-it-could-fit-at-least-20-people-and-made-me-feel-like-we-were-camping affair. The food wasn't too bad i heard(and tasted). Spicy fried rice, some burger with nan as the outer covering, and the legendary chicken with an apple stuck up its ass from Sheares Hall that was topped with a generous amount of nacho cheese and accompanied by fries and cucumbers(that only sandra ate).
















Cherlyn and chicken's carcass












Kesheng (Suspected Kidnapper No. 1) and his cheesy fingers.











Cherlyn's fingers, Chicken carcass, Jansen. jr, Heng Hong and Leon

















Pengyang's random shot

















Who's this?






THURSDAY NIGHT'S AFTER THOUGHTS


I still think of sharing my fun with you.



Lazy Afternoon
Thursday, October 9, 2008, 3:06 PM
Change Changed.

Have decided to change my blog's skin after numerous complaints that the previous one had disappearing words/words that blended into the background etc. I hope this works now cause i spent almost the entire morning trying to look for a new skin that is to my satisfaction. Such hard work! Ha. At least i think i'm satisfied with the current one. Though there are still changes to be made. Can hardly work up any ideas at the moment.. i feel brain dead.

It was a bad morning anyway. Got really frustrated with doing the calculations. I can't figure out the exact measurements and drawings. I can't remember the formulas. I can't even do simple calculations. I hate math! Urgh.. but i still have to do it. Then, i made an idiotic suggestion to Ken this morning. Not sure if he was kidding when he said he would give it a try or did he really mean to do it. I sure hope he was only kidding.. but it has got me bothered the whole morning. Crappy poooooo!

I'm officially tired. Got to get back to calculations anyway. Die la.

Quirky Thoughts
Wednesday, October 8, 2008, 9:44 AM
Quirky Thoughts: A thousand-year-old vampire

Spent last evening climbing in the gym back in school. I was expecting a huge crowd cause it was chalk day but surprisingly, there weren't much people. I kindof enjoyed the fact that there weren't much ancient dinos around yesterday.. They intimidate me at times. Not all of them give me this feeling.. but some do. It feels like they're all over the walls.. and falling from the ceiling every other second.

I really enjoyed the climbing session last night. Though my usual climbing buddies weren't around but it still pretty productive. Shumei was the only other girl around last evening. We did routes by Yixiang, Jiasheng and some others.. i think i had fun. Yesterday's routes weren't too hard... good for someone like me who hasn't been climbing that regularly anymore. Just when i talked about not having seen Cherlyn for ages, SHE POPPED OUT OF NOWHERE AND INTO THE GYM! We spent abit of time chatting.. climbing and finally went up to do hang board. For the first time in a long while, i felt that i have really climbed hard yesterday. I climbed till i could feel the strength seeping out of my arms.. feel that my hold involuntarily slipped off the tile.. and that i could not even hang on the rungs.

We were talking about getting old and being out of the team and stuff which Cherlyn then made a funny comment. She said that Claudia's like the thousand-year-old vampire that doesn't die. Hahah. Her rationale being: Claudia seem to be in the team forever. Even when we have all graduated or will be graduating next year, she'll still be around in the team. Being out of the team actually makes me feel old. Like what Felicia said, we're the 'old people' and suddenly the honorary award becomes some ' Long Service Award'. I'm amused by her words.

That aside, I'm looking forward to november.

Sadness creeps in
Tuesday, October 7, 2008, 9:08 AM
He goes that way, I stay put. Still mulling..

It has been more than a month. I wouldn't say it's a long time, yet it doesn't feel like it was a short period either. Perhaps it's because the days felt long and draggy...

It hadn't been easy then and it won't be easy now. Being alone ain't fun. Sure, you get all the freedom in the world but you'll still feel empty at the end of the day. "Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes". How apt.

I didn't give up back then, so it really hurt when he chose to give up this time round. I remember asking him why and his answer left me desolated. I went home that night, determined to erase him from my life. I never thought it would be that hard to forget him. Maybe i lack the courage for i'm afraid that the memories will vanish along with him. Remembering leaves me with a heavy heart but not being able to remisnisce leaves me with nothing. I will myself to be stronger, to stop hurting and move on like he has.

At times of vulnerability, i remind myself that i deserve this and ironically, i feel a lil' better.

Only cw sees beyond my face.


Comforting one liner
Monday, October 6, 2008, 3:41 PM
COMFORTING ONE LINER

"I'm just not as exicitng as other girls"

"You're more exciting than... 50% of the girls in the world"

If only it holds some truth.



My Question
Sunday, October 5, 2008, 10:00 PM
MY QUESTION.

I've walked to the end of the road.
Do i stop or do i turn back?
Or do i even have a choice?






Friday Frenzy
Friday, October 3, 2008, 2:49 PM
Something popped.
So climbing actually makes me smile

2nd October
Thursday, October 2, 2008, 9:28 AM
2nd OCTOBER
2nd October hasn't been off to a good start
2nd October had me woke up feeling bummed
2nd October is a long way till the end of the month
2nd October had me wondering if this christmas will be a
lonely one
2nd October makes me look foward to 2009
2nd October holds no special meaning for me
2nd October emphasizes on my emptiness
2nd October got me wondering about my life
2nd October has allowed me to steal a hug from Jane
2nd October is just another lonely day
2nd October makes me appreciate my family
2nd October makes me resolved to want to finish reading
my welding manual
2nd October tells me that i don't wish to feel like this anymore
2nd October had me missing the people who are not around me
2nd October makes me want to pick up a new language
2nd October is a day that i feel like i'm missing out on alot
2nd October tells me that i miss spending time with Mich,
Matt, Vince, Yx and Edwin like before
2nd October had me pondering if i would find my special someone
2nd October makes me feel ugly
2nd October reminds me that i need to book an appointment
with the dermatologist
2nd October had me mulling over my decisions
2nd October had me musing on saccharine memories
2nd October makes me want to stop splurging and save up
2nd October has me high on nostalgia
2nd October has me loving the dictionary and thesaurus
2nd October had me struggling to keep awake while driving
2nd October keeps me wonder about him and his life
2nd October makes me want to do something impulsive
2nd October signifies the 12th day of no contact
2nd October messes up my thoughts
2nd October is just another random day